Before I trusted Christ I had been living in my own strength. I learned from a very young age that people didn’t do as they said or mean what they said. With this knowledge I learned that the only person that I could trust or rely on was myself “the rock” and no one could touch me. Little did I know, I was only self destructing by enjoying the “good things” in life. I was completely separated from God. I was in relationships that were in complete disobedience and only brought me turmoil.
I found myself in a relationship that I knew was all wrong and I needed to get out of. I had set a plan of action to get out it and everything was going according to my plan. During this process, my youngest daughter was acting up in the worse way, my parents passed away, my sibling was struggling with addiction and I had learned that I was going to become a grandmother. However, in October 2013, the darkest moment of my life had come, the weight of my many poor decisions became so heavy, it was destroying me from the inside out. I recall the moment, I was in complete devastation and I was having a breakdown and as I wept on the floor against the wall, crying out why, out of nowhere I heard, “it’s okay”. It shook me, the tears stopped instantly, the pain sided, and I knew it was God and God was with me, God spoke to me, God gave me comfort in that moment. He brought me out of myself and into Him.
He saved me from this world, He showed me how much he loved me, even though I committed so many wrongs and sins against him. He gave me a new home, He gave me his Word, He gave me the truth, He gave me peace, He gave me forgiveness. He gave me a new life a new beginning a new journey, and I no longer walk according to my will, I walk according to His.
When my journey began, my brother called me to open a chest that had been locked up for years and inside was many treasures, 5 of them being Bibles and this scripture was marked in one of them :
1 I waited patiently for the LORD, and he inclinded unto me, and heard my cry.
2 He brought me up also out of a horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings
3 And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the Lord
God’s timing is everything, Praise the Lord our God is a Living God! Amen!